*Disclaimer, this post is a mental health related post An open letter to the first therapist I had. I do not want to trigger anyone so please use caution if you choose to read it*
Dear Dr. S, I realize it has been almost 3 years since we last spoke but there was a couple of things that you need to know that I let go unsaid.
I understand that your job is difficult, believe me I get that. You hear a lot of really disheartening stories/thoughts on a daily basis. On the other hand that in no way dismisses how you treated me.
Your words and actions lead to some very dangerous actions by me. You judged me and dismissed me, frankly for something I have no control over.
Why are you even a therapist?
To make things worse you had assumed the worst of me. By assuming I was using street drugs (something I have no history of by the way) you made it seem like my “diagnosis” was somehow caused by my actions.
Worse than that, you abandoned me. Something that caused me to question my own worth and in turn do something with potentially devastating consequences. I hurt myself and worst, I hurt my husband.
“There is hope, even when your brain tells you there isn’t” – John Green (Turtles all the way Down)
For that I blame you. Yes, I realize my overdose was caused by my own personal actions. But you made me feel abandoned and like I was a burden. No one should ever feel like that.
To read about my mental health story check out this post — My Mental health story.
Please reconsider your profession. Your job as a therapist is to listen to and try to help people the best you can. You are suppose to be understanding and non judgemental. Two things which you were not.
Please let me know down in the comments or email if you prefer (firstname.lastname@example.org) if you or someone you know have experienced something like this.
I want to believe that people go into professions like this because they genuinely want to help people (I hope anyways). I’m not sure where that dies but for this therapist I believe it has.
Please know that no matter what you are going through you are never alone, there is always hope. I’m always around to give a empathetic ear if you want/need one. Feel free to email me anytime.
Again my email is (email@example.com).
- 2019 update, I found a amazing therapist June 2019. He listens, treats me like a actual person and actually wants to help me. There are people out there who want to help you, you just have to be willing to look for them.
Till next time friends