Accepting my body as a “plus size” body was difficult. It took time for me to come to terms that this is the body I currently have. Body acceptance was definitely not on my mind.
The first time I went shopping after gaining weight was bad. I was embarrassed about how my body looked and ashamed that I had to shop at a “plus size” clothing store.
looking back on it now as a 31 year old I think my thought process was completely ridiculous but valid.
Growing up being “fat” was one of the worst things imaginable. I was so embarrassed when I had to go up sizes. I wish someone would have told me that going up sizes is normal with a growing body.
As I got into my early twenties I started looking for clothes that I actually liked and that fit me. I had come across this website “Kiyonna” you can check them out here.
All of their stuff was gorgeous, and for bigger sizes. It really changed the way I thought about myself. I saw models like Ashley Graham rocking really pretty clothes. Before that I wasn’t aware of “plus size” clothing places like that.
Once I accepted that my body was now bigger than it use to be everything changed.
How did body acceptance change me?
Acceptance of the body I currently had changed everything. I would try on clothes I liked and if something looked off or didn’t fit right, I was able to separate my thoughts.
I was no longer thinking “my body was wrong” because certain styles didn’t look right or something was too tight. It’s just the way the clothes didn’t work with my body, that was not a personal attack on me.
Here’s the takeaway from this
Wear whatever you want to wear. Clothe yourself in things you love. Not everything will work for your body, and that’s okay. It’s not a personal attack on you or what you look like.
For example I’ll use “maxi dresses”. I love how easy they are, they are incredibly comfortable and just through on and go. When I put on a “maxi dress” I look like I’ve been swallowed up or like I’m drowning in fabric.
I’m short, and that’s okay. I’m not going to get any taller. Some shorter people can pull off a floor length dress or skirt, I on the other hand look like I’m wearing a tent.
It’s not a personal attack on me that the “maxi dresses” don’t work with my body, it’s just the way they are made.
Well I hope this post is a help to someone. Let me know down in the comments below if there is anything you would like to read about or could use help with pertaining to mental health, body positivity + confidence or self love + care.
Till next time fabulous humans,